It wasn’t what I was expecting…
I always pictured going to college differently.
I’d be this full adult, who was ready for anything. Very….mature. If anything, I’m the opposite. All of my siblings, they were mature. But not me.
Everyone had a boyfriend or girlfriend, even Forrest! Well, everyone besides Clover of course. But even she seemed the most mature out of all of us.
I had to admit…Twizzle was quite the catch. I sure wouldn’t mind being Emerald right about now…
Everyone seemed to be starting college off right. Studying. I wasn’t sure what to study though…I mean I was getting a degree in fine arts! Jade was looking for one in Physical Education with her boyfriend, and Clover was for communications. They had books and articles about what to do…I just didn’t get it.
Sure enough, the sibs pulled through and started college off right. It was time to party!
And when I say party, I’m not skipping out on the drinks. And trust me, there was quite a bit of that.
I went upstairs to use the restroom when I was met in the middle. “Hey there” Blue startled me. I didn’t know anyone else was up there with me. “Oh…hi Blue.” I could tell he was drunk.
“Why do you look scared…I’m not gonna hurt you little girl” He winked. “I’m not a little girl, and don’t you dare call me that ever again” He looked me up and down. He pulled me close and stared into my eyes, sharing breath. “I like ’em fiesty” he whispered before crashing his lips into mine.
It was my first kiss, I admit. Unless you count this little peck in the sixth grade, but this was my first real kiss. Well, not that I was sure it was real. Blue had a girlfriend, my sister! And he was obviously drunk, would he have kissed me if he wasn’t? I ran back down to where everyone else was. I noticed Jade look at me and I immediately looked down. She walked over to me and my breaths became short. I braced myself for what she was about to say. “Have you seen Blue?” What would I say…I didn’t want her to know that we had been together! “I uh…d-don’t know. S-s-sorry”
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The next morning marked my first official day of university. I ran to my first class, considering I didn’t have a car and the others who did’s were too full. Whatever, maybe I could use the exercise.
The lecture was so boring it was hard keeping my eyes open. But I did my best to focus. I eventually found myself focusing on something else…
This gorgeous guy was in my class, and I couldn’t help but stare. He was perfect, and I was definitely talking to him later.
I got home at the same time as Twizzle, which definitely worked out in my favor. I stood there for a moment before finally working up the courage to go talk to him. “Hello Twizzle” I gave him a slight smile. “Oh, hi Midori, didn’t see ya there. Uh…how was your first day?” How could he not have seen me? We walked up at the same time! “It was great actually!” He smiled back “Great” I was tired of the small talk. I nodded, then bit my lip and stared down at his. I looked from his lips to his eyes then back and forth until he finally got the message.
It was so wrong, but even more right. How could it feel both ways?
It seemed more wrong after it was over because we were definitely caught. In the midst of our conversation to the kiss, I had completely forgotten about the rest of the house getting back from school. There was no way around it, we were right in the front yard!
Emerald yelled at her boyfriend, then passed her anger onto me. “How could you?! You are my sister! That’s not what you do to your sister!” She shouted. I didn’t know what to do, so I ran inside.
That night I got a text from Twizzle telling me to meet him a block away. “Listen, I’m sorry” I nodded. “I didn’t mean to lead you on…” I rolled my eyes. Lead me on? Even he was treating me like a child. “I don’t know what I was thinking…I mean you’re a great girl don’t get me wrong! It’s just that I am truly in love with Emerald” I nodded again. I felt tears sting my eyes and I tried to blink them back. “Hey it’s okay! I’m sorry” He hugged me. I pulled away. “It’s okay, I get it.” I smiled. “So no hard feelings?” I thought for a moment. “Of course not” He smiled and drove me home.